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I kept thinking about my mother as I read this book. She also had 4 children to raise and I wonder how often she felt imprisoned. Maybe that's why she started teaching again or at least it might have been part of the reason. She was somewhat of an anomaly at the time but if it saved her sanity then I'm grateful she did it.
Laurence is a fine writer and I wish she had written more. I have one more book of hers to read and then I may have to start reading them over again.
WILD RELEASE NOTES:
It is waiting there for a new reader to take home, read, and release back into the wild!
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So while I would not have searched out this old book by Margaret Laurence, when it fell into my hands, I thought that I would have another visit. And a visit it was. A visit with an old friend.
When I first read this book I would have been about 20 years younger than Stacey MacAindra. I am now about 20 years older than she.
Stacey is 39 years old. She is a housewife with a grade 11 education, mother to four children, and wife to Mac, a hard-working man. She has all she thought she ever wanted, certainly everything that women were supposed to want at that time. And yet she is dissatisfied. She worries about her kids, worries about her husband, thinks she's failed all of them. She drinks too much and feels trapped. She wants out. She wants someone to love her for who she is, someone to talk to her and listen to her.
When I first read this book I was just 19, a new mother and I instantly related to Stacey through her internal conversations. I had the same kind. "Oh please God, don't let me be one of those mothers who throw their baby in the dumpster." I don't now recall whether I was conscious of the age difference between Stacey and me. I doubt that I was, for surely I would have thought then that by 39 I'd have my act together and not be so insecure. Unlike Stacey, surely by 39, I'd know how to say what I want, would have a more equal relationship with my partner, be comfortable with who I was and be defined by more than just my role as wife and mother.
To be honest, when I picked this book up a couple of days ago, I could not remember the story, but as I read it all came back to me. Visiting Stacey again was like visiting that younger me. While I am reasonably confident that my 39 year old self and my 50+ year-old self was and is not so dissatisfied as Stacey was, I know that that insecure person who bargains with God and herself still resides within me as I suspect she resides within us all.
What I found really interesting was how, as I read, not only did this book itself come flooding back into my memory, but so too did the whole Manawaka series. So not only did I visit with Stacey, I also had a good chat with Hagar, Rachel, Vanessa, Piquette and Morag. How glad I am to have known them.
WILD RELEASE NOTES:
To the finder of this book:
I released this book into the wilds of Winnipeg as part of the annual Canada Day release challenge. BookCrossers across the country, and the world, are releasing Canadian books in celebration of our country's wealth of wonderful literature. I hope you enjoy this book. Happy Canada Day on the 1st!
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